Thursday, April 25, 2013

My Lily Grace is 5!!!

My precious beautiful baby girl is 5! So hard to believe. I look at photos of my stubby short haired baby girl and there is almost no traces of her left in the little beauty. Oh I still get glimpses of her, but boy how she has grown! Into such an amazing little girl!! I am so proud of the sweet girl she is. Her heart is so big. She feels so big, she loves deep, she cares lots, and she cries easy. She adores her big brother and is a great big sister to her baby sisters. She is very responsible and is such a good girl. She is excited as can be about starting Kintergarten next year gives the best hugs and kisses. Her favorite dinner is speghetti and meat balls and she loves dessert! (me too!) Oh how much I love this girl and how very blessed I feel to be her mama. Lots of love to you our sweet Lily Grace... can't wait to see what God has in store for you!!


















1. What is your name? Lily

2. March 29th

3. What do you want to do when you grow up? "I want to be a Dr. a baby Dr."

4.What is your favorite food? "Broccolli"

5.What is your favorite show? "Barbie Princess and the Pauper"

6;What is your favorite song? " 1000 reasons and corageous"

7.What is your favorite color? " pink and purple

8. What is your favorite drink? "apple juice"

9. What is your favorite store? "Costo" :)"

10. What is yoru favorite princess? "Cinderella"

11. What do you like to do outside? "Place on the swings"





Friday, April 19, 2013

8 months and so fun...

Well I'm a bit behind :) But for what it is worth I have been so busy doing my best to enjoy my littles that the camera took a back seat, but hopefully I can remember to bring it out because I just don't want to forget these precious days. Today this little sweet heart is 8 months. She just started crawling two weeks ago, has two bottom teeth and LOVES to eat. She adores her brother and sisters and although I want more personal space for her most times she doesn't mind when they are being crazy in her face. And when she does mind she screams at them and will bat them away. Which brings me to the next thing about this little miss, she is very opinionated :) She is the sweetest, cuddliest thing ever but if she is hungry, tried or irritated she will let you know. She takes two good naps a day and sleeps great at night. She still has these grey/blue eyes that are so pretty and a smile that will melt you. Her rolls are the best! I love her so much and am having to much fun seeing her personality shine through.





Friday, March 15, 2013

A pair.


These two are quite a pair and so precious. I can no believe how big they are..... seems I have had snow photos of them for a while and each year they look like such little bitties... but not now. They are growing up and I am so thankful they have each other. I could have never imagined when I had Lily what kind of relationship they would have. And it is something so special. Love that God gave them each other so close in age. 



Thursday, March 14, 2013

Grieving and closeness to the Lord...

Grief, yes it makes me feel like an emotional mess. One moment I am fine, totally fine. Then the next a thought, song, .... nothing,  will trigger something and I'm a crying mess. There is no rhyme or reason for it. I have discovered something very sweet in the midst of this. There is this level of closeness, supernatural care and peace that I have experienced from God that I just never have come close to experiencing before. It is awesome. The way that He has carried me, because at times I have needed it, has been very powerful for me. I feel so changed inside. Not outside, look at me and you will see the same Jenn you saw a week ago. But inside, inside there is a different girl in there. A wounded girl that did not exist before. But because of that wound I have a new reality of Jesus, a new understanding of Him, and that is a gift. I have a connection with heaven like I have never had before. A new very real reason to look forward to getting there. So while I would much rather have my baby growing in my belly and life to be as it was planned a week ago, I'm not sure I would ever wish to not know how very real His care is, and how very real His promise is that he loves and takes care of His children. Thankful for the Lord, that in times of such disrepair  he holds us and mends our heart and just let's us cry.

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Loss.

Wow. This is something that I have gone over in my mind many times but never would have guessed that I would be the one writing these words. But here I am writing these words. Funny how that happens. Death has actually never been a huge part of my life. All of my grandparents whom I knew growing up are still alive and really I have not had a lot of experience in that area. I always felt like maybe I wouldn't be cut out for grieving a loss like that. Well turns out no one is. Wednesday morning we began what seemed like the longest ride ever (today is Sunday) that began the loss of our precious 6th pregnancy. I still have to go to the Dr.s to make sure everything is going down like it should be. How crazy is that? They need to make sure my body has eliminated all things pregnancy that it just took 8 weeks for build. Seems so wrong. That five days ago I was happily pregnant, with dreams of this baby in my head and heart. Who they would be, how their age would fit into our family, boy/girl??, how pregnant I would be on vacation this year, where they would sit at our dining room table, ugh so many dreams. Every night we prayed or the family at dinner and for the new baby growing in my belly. Now instead it's prayers for healing and understanding. Now instead there are no more dreams of that life to be had. That is hard. And it has nothing to do with being thankful for what we have, because that is an entire post in itself because we could not be more aware than we are today of our blessings. But we don't collect children, they are each a special, individual gift to us. So this loss is just that, a loss of a special, individual gift. And that makes us sad.........

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Winter day.

We have had a bit of snow recently. It is very pertty and honestly I would rather have snow if it were going to be cold. So it's pretty. And as pretty as it is I am ready for spring :) Kyle took Henry hunting for the first time today ans while they were out us girls had a tea party. It was such fun they loved it! And I loved the sweet time with my two bigs.